Our Bodies Don't Lie

I just finished an amazing book by Geneen Roth: Women Food and God. I'm realizing some of the ways I used food to feed empty places, to hide, to fill, to punish. And now, how I'm trying to use food to heal, to nourish, to honor, to love. It's like a veil has been lifted. Although, I'm still struggling with food paranoia. If I eat this pretzel stick, will I become a hunger-crazed lunatic ordering french fries off every fast food menu in the state of New Jersey? Will this teaspoon of peanut butter cause my weight to skyrocket back up to 260 pounds overnight? Am I really hungry? I mean, I know my stomach is growling . . .but am I REALLY hungry? And the scale doesn't help. When I get on the scale and it reflects back to me that I still weigh 216.6 pounds - I get angry. And anger is a pre-juice fast state of being. I start to think those old, hateful thoughts . . .do more, do more, do more - you fat waste of space!

So then I have to take a deep breath. And get off the scale. And keep going. Because I'm good. Now. At 216.6 pounds. So I'll eat what a good person gets to eat. Fruits, vegetables, nuts, seeds - and sometimes a teaspoon of peanut butter. And because my weight is irrelevant in my post-juice fast world, I am emancipating myself from the scale. Chuck has hidden it from me. And that's the end of the story. So now, if I need to know how I'm doing - I'm going to have to ask my own body.

Here's my weekly video update with some clips from Geneen Roth's book and - of course - pictures of food! I don't know what's up with my recording devices. My audio and video aren't syncing. It's very sad. But no way I'm starting over - so just close your eyes if it bothers you and enjoy!