One more week until I step on the scale.
When I trust my body, I eat a spoonful of peanut butter, I run at a pace that feels good, I notice my ability to step up into a forward fold from a downward dog in two steps, I wear t-shirts I bought years ago but could never wear, and I notice the comfort of chairs that once pinched my hips and thighs.
But there are also many moments of doubt. Sometimes I find myself trapped in old patterns of thought. Warrior II is the worst position to see myself in. When I catch myself in the reflection, with my arms outstretched, I see every bump and curve and roll. It looks like the same old body. The same body I had four months ago.
I see the scale as the judge. If the number is lower, I can trust my body. If the number is not lower, then I can't. I don't want the number to matter, but if I don't have affirmation, how can I know if I'm doing the right things?
Ugh! I'm planning to start the 10-day July Juice Fast on July 14th. So get ready! Next week the numbers will be in . . .
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I love and admire your transparency!! I would love to be part of your next juicing journey!
ReplyDeleteJust remember: life and nature have cycles. They seem to blend together yet filled with enough contrast to realize that when we plant the seedlings ....there is a time where patience and "knowing" that new growth and transformation are occurring
..beyond the surface...stay focused. Mantra your intention and you will see the changes that you are so ~eloquently~manifesting.
Be the Change~ you are inspiring many of us of all ages!!
There is a small moment of time, which seems to stand still, that we do not physically see the fruits of our labor... intent. KNOW they are the next part if your journey! It just needs time to confirm that is what you really want..say Yes and be grateful for this opportunity to lead others on a healthy journey. Results are here! Waiting foe your confirmation!!
((((((Virtual Hugs))))))))MommaMon;)
just like showing up on your mat, showing up for your body, with love, will have rippling manifestations beyond numbers or pose achievements. there is no right or wrong way, no matter what happens with the scale. it's the presence and the intention that matters, and in this you are treating your body with love. the yogis say, divorce yourself from the fruits of your efforts. just act, with love. non-attachment. give the efforts up to god. you're beloved and lovable at any weight or with any body. keep up the hard work!
ReplyDeleteThank you both for the inspiration! I needed it. I'll come back and read these comments every time I forget that my intention is to love the body I live in - and treat it that way.
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