Vegan Comfort Food

These past few weeks have been incredibly stressful. I've been sleep deprived, overworked, and now I'm getting sick. The interview process is intense. I check my e-mail thousands of times a day - hoping to see that next interview invitation or potential job offer. And nothing. Nothing, nothing, nothing. Am I doing enough? Am I missing something? Am I good enough? The self-inflicted mind games are worse than the interviews themselves.

Last Wednesday, after an interview, I had the strongest craving I’ve had since February. My adrenaline was surging and I needed to regulate. Needed to numb the intense feeling of blood pumping through my veins. I desperately wanted French fries and a diet coke. Luckily, I had a bag of trail mix in the car and my water bottle was full. So I stuffed a handful of nuts and fruit into my mouth, gulped the water, kicked off my shoes, turned up the music – and just drove home.

I know I’ve been eating more recklessly lately. More in quantity. More comfort foods. But still vegan. Still mostly homemade. And I’ve bumped up to a 4-mile run, 3 times a week. Still going to yoga 3 times a week. I’ll be weighing-in about two weeks from now. I’m trying to trust my body. Trying to live by the mantra that the way I feel is more important than the number on the scale. But I don’t completely trust myself. I need to see the number decreasing to confirm that I’m actually making the right choices.

I feel strong. I’m putting together plans for my July juice fast and will keep everyone posted. Hope I get some companions! I’ll be happy to get back to the juice for a while.