Day 18

First, a juice update: Last night I was tired and didn't feel like having a veggie juice, so as a treat I made a purely watermelon juice. It - was - amazing. I wouldn't do this on a normal basis, because I really want to get a variety of fruits and veggies. But it was so clean, so sweet - not sticky, like citrus fruits are. It was the one juice I've had so far that I can say felt like a treat. So I'll definitely have to buy another watermelon this weekend. I also did a carrot, kale, grape, apple, broccoli mix for dinner that tasted nice. I made my juice while Chuck cooked his dinner and we ate together. It felt great. We haven't eaten together like that since the beginning of the fast.

In other news, I had my presentation today. I felt good about it - but any time I'm in a high stress situation - it could be a presentation, a rough day at work, attending a workshop, meeting new people, even hanging out with friends - when I'm alone, I hyperfocus on whatever just transpired. Did I stumble on my words, did I convey what I was really thinking, did I say anything offensive, was I polite, was I authentic . . .Analyzing myself to death. It's uncomfortable - and I avoid it by eating a cookie or some french fries. So needless to say, the drive home was rough. I stopped by Stephens State Park which is just a few minutes from my apartment and tried to distract myself with nature:



Being a South Jersey girl at heart, I used to think I could never leave the flatlands. My ears pop at the slightest change in elevation. But now after seven years of being surrounded by them, I have to say I love living in the mountains.