I sat in my car on 56th Street in Midtown, waiting for my appointment at 6:30pm. The perfect opportunity to meditate, I thought. I turned on my Calm app and set it to the ocean background. I closed my eyes, listened to the waves, and allowed my breath to connect with the soundtrack.
I could see the flashes of light from passing cars beneath my eyelids and hear the people walking by. I felt anxiety at being in the city and an itch on my neck. I continued to breathe. I hadn’t fed my meter yet. I worried that I might get a ticket for sitting there. I worried that people might be watching me.
But again, I continued to breathe. And the anxiety subsided. At times I felt like I was transcending the noise around me. I imagined sitting on the warm wooden floors in the yoga studio. And at times the anxiety crept in. Just like the sound of the waves from the tinny little speakers of my phone, and the movement of my breath in and out – the anxiety ebbed and flowed.
I’m thinking of doing a 3-day kitchari cleanse. This is an Ayurveda thing. Kitchari is a stew made mostly of mung beans, broth, and spices. The premise is that this stew helps cleanse and reset your system and the practitioners of Ayurveda (the Ayurvedics?) say that this should be done with every change in season. I ordered my mung beans and I’ll make the kitchari . . .but if it’s gross, I’m out.
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