Meditation: Day 2

I spent 6 hours reading SAT essays, only to ultimately fail my certification test. (Don't worry, I get a second chance.) But by the time I was done, I realized I had a list of things to do and not a lot of time to do them. Chuck had arrived home, so I decided to meditate in the shower.

I sat down on floor of the tub, hot water streaming down my face. I had to rearrange a few times before finding a good meditation posture. Ultimately I sat with the sole of one foot on the surface of the tub and the other extended long. Hands in my lap. The water was distracting. My foot slipping against the floor was distracting. All the thoughts running through my head were distracting. But finally I settled in.

I felt an aching sensation in my ribcage. It felt like wanting. I want to have passed the certification test. I want to have found a full-time teaching gig. But I also felt a sense of peace. This time was mine. 10 minutes when nothing else mattered. I guess that's living. Being present to what is happening and finding the peace in it.