I will tell the truth. Before starting the 21 day project, I was eating almost an entire bag of Spicy Chili Doritos a day. I would have a 6-inch veggie sub or two pretzels and peanut chews on my way home from work. And at some point it was very likely that I would order one, if not two, large fries from Burger King or Wendy's. And then when Chuck would get home I would eat again. And most likely, I would continue to snack late into the evening. My exercise consisted of begrudgingly walking the dog around the block.
I haven't eaten a French fry in over a month. Or a sub. Or a soft pretzel. I'm conscious of what I'm eating when I'm eating it. And also aware of how that fits into the overall intake for the day. But I'm afraid my tendency to be a food-Nazi is counterproductive. I'm setting myself up for a binge by being so stingy. And possibly screwing with my metabolism.
Awareness is the answer. Mindfulness. That's why this upcoming meditation practice is so important. I have to start trusting what I feel.
I'm trying to persuade myself that changing ones habits are a matter of shifting ones mind to accept the new ones, even if it takes weeks abd month. I've had some success in the past with thus philosophy but it don't know how far it goes. But I know once one starts on a new course, it's possible that every day of change makes change easier. But it may be more will power than shifting the mind. I haven't figured that one out yet.
ReplyDeleteBut I am slowly changing my diet and the size of portions because of your example.